Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Long Overdue
I hereby apologize to my readers (that is if I have any :P) for not updating my blog. I know it has been a month. I'm really really really sorry. My mind had been so preoccupied lately with 'these things'... 'these things' that I cannot write here. I am very vexed by 'these things' but me being me, do not like show my unhappiness to my family unless necessary. I am so troubled by 'these things' that sometimes I just went into denial mode. I just pretend that 'these things' do not exist and continue to enjoy myself for whatever time I still have until the time bomb explodes.
'These things' had taught me many things and made me seen through and found out a lot of things. It is a lesson well-learned but nonetheless, it is a very expensive lesson.
To be very honest... I do feel very lonely sometimes. I cannot find someone to go out with me, sit down and listen to my problems. I know nobody owes me that but sometimes I just need to pour out what's vexing me, to get the load off me. I was very depressed by 'these things' at one point of time. It got so bad that lets just say that I was in a depression but now i have straighten my thoughts and decide to face 'these things' and am prepared to start from the scratch. My only consideration is the disappointment that is going to come from my parents when the bomb finally explodes. I just prayed for their understanding and support.
'These things' had taught me many things and made me seen through and found out a lot of things. It is a lesson well-learned but nonetheless, it is a very expensive lesson.
To be very honest... I do feel very lonely sometimes. I cannot find someone to go out with me, sit down and listen to my problems. I know nobody owes me that but sometimes I just need to pour out what's vexing me, to get the load off me. I was very depressed by 'these things' at one point of time. It got so bad that lets just say that I was in a depression but now i have straighten my thoughts and decide to face 'these things' and am prepared to start from the scratch. My only consideration is the disappointment that is going to come from my parents when the bomb finally explodes. I just prayed for their understanding and support.
Trust me, nobody wants to commit this kind of mistake. I am no exception. My confidence had been badly pierced by this incident. I am hoping for a 2nd chance to build back my confidence again... I am still waiting...
4:16 PM
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