Friday, July 15, 2005
My Buddies (Part 1)
To me, friends play a very important part in my life. A person does not need a lot of friends. All he/she needs is a couple of very good friends, whom you know will be there when you need some company.
I must say that I am very lucky to have a few very good friends in my life, 3 actually. I know they are my best friends cos' they accept me for who I am and will be there for me when I need them. Of course, I will do the same thing for them (In case, you think I am a sucker.). Although I knew them from different stages of my life but we had been 'bestest' of friends since then. I will blog about the first 2 buddies that I have in another blog in the near future. Today I would like to blog about the last girlfriend, F, which had become my buddy.
I knew F in March 2004. I just joined my second buddy, J's, company and J introduced me to F. We started to hang out together a lot cos' we had some common activity going on then. We were also hanging out more cos' at one point of time, she will come my place and wait for her boyfriend to come pick her up after his work. Our bond built up tremendously during that period. We will talk about everything and anything about our family, friends, work, relationship and pratically everything under the stars. We see each other during working hours and even off working hours. She became very closed to my family and relatives. F is that kind of girl that is easily likeable. She is like part of my family. There are many times where we will see each other 7 days a week and we always seems to have endless topics to talk about. I guess it is more so because our thinking are quite alike. I still remember the time when I was having some personal problems and was almost in a depression, she will always be there for me. We had a lot of memories together... We went swimming, chill out over coffee, drive around, gossiping at hotel, staying over at her place... Those were the days.
Then in April this year, something happened and we were not talking to each other. Everybody around me were very puzzled what happened to us cos' they always see us together and started asking me... I always put up a brave front and refused to tell them what happened cos' I do not want them to see how sad and affected I am by it. I know that people I know will take side (my side) if they can see how sad and affected I am but I do not want that to happen cos' somewhere in my heart, I am pinning on a hope that we will be like before again and if that happens, I do not want them to show F an attitude.
In fact F and I had briefly talked to each other on smses and we wanted to patch things up like before but we had not had the chance all along. I would be lying if I tell you that I have not been thinking about her all this while... after all, we do come a long way.
Last night, I received a call from F. Even though it was 12:15am, I readily agreed to go out for coffee with her. We were just drinking coffee and chatting like old times. We did not talk about what happened between us and I believe that both of us have a guarded feeling of 'putting' in our feelings this time round. I personally feel that it can be worked on cos' I believe both of us do not want this friendship to end. I guess we will have to see how things go and also how much we want this friendship to carry on... For me, a lot...
I must say that I am very lucky to have a few very good friends in my life, 3 actually. I know they are my best friends cos' they accept me for who I am and will be there for me when I need them. Of course, I will do the same thing for them (In case, you think I am a sucker.). Although I knew them from different stages of my life but we had been 'bestest' of friends since then. I will blog about the first 2 buddies that I have in another blog in the near future. Today I would like to blog about the last girlfriend, F, which had become my buddy.
I knew F in March 2004. I just joined my second buddy, J's, company and J introduced me to F. We started to hang out together a lot cos' we had some common activity going on then. We were also hanging out more cos' at one point of time, she will come my place and wait for her boyfriend to come pick her up after his work. Our bond built up tremendously during that period. We will talk about everything and anything about our family, friends, work, relationship and pratically everything under the stars. We see each other during working hours and even off working hours. She became very closed to my family and relatives. F is that kind of girl that is easily likeable. She is like part of my family. There are many times where we will see each other 7 days a week and we always seems to have endless topics to talk about. I guess it is more so because our thinking are quite alike. I still remember the time when I was having some personal problems and was almost in a depression, she will always be there for me. We had a lot of memories together... We went swimming, chill out over coffee, drive around, gossiping at hotel, staying over at her place... Those were the days.
Then in April this year, something happened and we were not talking to each other. Everybody around me were very puzzled what happened to us cos' they always see us together and started asking me... I always put up a brave front and refused to tell them what happened cos' I do not want them to see how sad and affected I am by it. I know that people I know will take side (my side) if they can see how sad and affected I am but I do not want that to happen cos' somewhere in my heart, I am pinning on a hope that we will be like before again and if that happens, I do not want them to show F an attitude.
In fact F and I had briefly talked to each other on smses and we wanted to patch things up like before but we had not had the chance all along. I would be lying if I tell you that I have not been thinking about her all this while... after all, we do come a long way.
Last night, I received a call from F. Even though it was 12:15am, I readily agreed to go out for coffee with her. We were just drinking coffee and chatting like old times. We did not talk about what happened between us and I believe that both of us have a guarded feeling of 'putting' in our feelings this time round. I personally feel that it can be worked on cos' I believe both of us do not want this friendship to end. I guess we will have to see how things go and also how much we want this friendship to carry on... For me, a lot...
5:07 PM
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